Since losing his wife, Beth Chapman, to cancer over the summer, the Dog the Bounty Hunter star revealed he’s contemplated taking his own life. Duane revealed this and more during the last episode of the WGN America series’ sequel series, which aired Wednesday night (November 6).
“I’ve only been alone as I showered and I had to run out without a towel, because I can’t be alone right now,” the 66-year-old said in the finale, via PEOPLE. “That’s when I start thinking about things. And I lay down to take a nap, and I reached over to touch something, and it was the freaking dog. I don’t realize yet psychologically that she’s gone gone and I’ll never, ever see her. I don’t realize that.”
He continued: “I just hope that I don’t live very much longer without her, because now she made the first step, she’s through the gate. She paved a way for me. I want to take a god–n pain pill so bad. I feel like if I did something to myself right now and passed away suicidal and I got to heaven and was like, ‘Hi honey,’ and would she go, ‘You dumb–s, why would you do that?’ Or would she go, ‘Wow, you’re here.’ I’ll be like ‘Of course I’m here. You left me. I’m here.’ So, am I obligated to do that?”
The episode aired just weeks after Duane Chapman honored his late wife on what would have been her 52nd birthday on October 29. Beth died on June 26 at aged 51 after a long fight with Stage 2 throat cancer.
Since then, Duane Chapman has been struggling physically and emotionally to manage his grief, having suffered a heart-related health scare that led him to be diagnosed with a pulmonary embolism. Thankfully, the reality star is faring well and has made strides to better his health.