Singer Michelle Williams was a guest co-host on The Talk on Wednesday, October 18 and took the opportunity to open up about her struggles with depression and thoughts of suicide at the peak of Destiny Child’s success in the early 2000s.
“I didn’t know until I was in my 30s what was going on,” Williams said. “I just thought it was growing pains. I just thought, ‘I’m turning into a woman.'” Williams also revealed that she had been feeling depressed since her teenage years but “didn’t know what to call it.”
Michelle opened up about her depression to Mathew Knowles, Beyoncé’s father, who was also the group’s manager at the time. Williams told Knowles that she was thought she was depressed, he told her, “You all just signed a multi-million dollar deal. You’re about to go on tour. What do you have to be depressed about?” Williams continued to deal with her depression, but it only worsened to the point that she was suicidal and wanted to leave the group.
Michelle told the talk show panel that things got “dark and heavy” — to the point that she felt suicidal. “I wanted out,” she recalled. Fortunately, she now says she has released herself from her battle with depression and hopes her story can inspire others. “Depression doesn’t mean lazy. Self-harm doesn’t mean you want attention. It’s not any of that.”